Miss Bluestocking’s Confession

My Dearest most dear ever adored friend without whom I cannot live, 

I am most vexed. In spite of myself, I always end up sleeping at one, two or three in the morning, even though I know well that I won’t be able to wake up (without taking heroic efforts) to go to school. And you wonder what I must have been doing till the early hours of the morning? I wish I could say that I had been studying and fighting against my urges to sleep for the sake of academic success–But no, I confess to you my drst friend that I had been staring for hours at Microsoft Word, typing a sentence then backspacing each letter until I returned back to a blank page of the chapter I was supposed to rewrite and send over to my patroness[editor] a week ago. This isn’t the most productive way to spend one’s time. I do know that, but I still remain before my laptop, truly believing that to sleep means to forgo that moment when I might be struck by an inspiration. But of course, no ‘AH-HAH’ moments transpired in my groggly mind. I never do learn my lesson. This ridiculousness I repeat the next evening, staring at Microsoft word, the glow of its blank whiteness illuminating my countenance, while my mind is filled with muslin, bonnets, trousers [yes, trousers! yum], cravats and characters nodding away to sleep. Whatever am I to do with myself? I have skipped class and it pricks at my conscience. I had once been a good student who considered it sacrilegiousto skip. Oh, those good old days! I shall try to be more disciplined the next time and force myself to sleep. I promise you!–no, I mustn’t promise, but I will try my best! 

Your most obedient and humble servant,
Miss Bluestocking

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16 responses to “Miss Bluestocking’s Confession

  1. changered

    Don’t be soo hard on yourself.
    Half of us do the same, when we shouldn’t be.
    I should be solving 12 case studies by Monday.
    Not happening.
    Sigh.

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    • junebugger

      I guess staring at Microsoft Word when we should be sleeping/studying is a universal problem when it comes to writers, haha. Yes, I mustn’t be too harsh on myself–but I really do need the sleep I’m missing out on!

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  2. raven

    Your headers are always so pretty!

    I can really relate to you. Writing is keeping me from staying focused. It’s my last week of school and I can’t even get my homework done, because I spend hours and hours typing away on my computer.

    And I thought I was the only one who dreamed of muslin dresses and such! The way they dressed back then was so simple but yet elegant. But I think that my dream was the result of me falling asleep watching The Duchess.

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    • junebugger

      hehe thanks for the compliment.

      YES, I know, writing is keeping me away from focusing on my studies! I really do need to set my priorities straight–and yet, though I know this, I won’t do this. Writing beats all.

      Ah..The Duchess…such a heart-breaking movie.

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    • changered

      Haha. It’s alright.
      We the people love fashion and writing.
      School is well,
      not a priority?
      Boo. I NEED to study.
      I am Ruku, btw.
      What’s your name? ^^

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  3. changered

    I am not sure. But yeah, poetry comes more naturally and you? (:
    Oh, where are you from? x

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    • junebugger

      I’m not that into poetry–it leaves a lot to the reader’s own interpretation. And I’m not good at reading betweeen the lines. I’m a lover of prose.

      I’m currently living in Toronto right now.(But I wish I was residing in ENGLAND–it’s the country I’ve been writing of for years) And you?

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      • changered

        Prose is amazing to read. Toronto?
        Weee. I am going to hopefully be doing my graduation there.
        England is beautiful!
        I live in India (:

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      • junebugger

        India? Oh, awsome! i haven’t been there, but I love Indian food. Mmmm

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  4. changered

    Haha. Yeah, the food is good (:

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  5. priscillashay

    ..I can’t believe I totally missed this post. But, like you’ve been told 🙂 don’t be too hard on yourself. Lol, yeah I do think it’s a universal writing thing. I can’t sleep until 4am now, and i try to write..but nothing’s really coming out o.O

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  6. junebugger

    Have you ever tried writing in the early morning? (I have, and failed miserably). I guess I’m more inspired at night

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